Baby-School-College-Job-Girl------??

It’s been 24 long long years now since i was born. Started as Naked little baby without any idea of life ahead.. Had i know that it would be like this i would never have come out of mother’s womb. This life of mine is really fucked up now...
Went to school with a hope for studying hard and bringing Trophies home to satisfy parents and gain some personal image in the small group of few hundred children. Years went by playing and fighting. Went to High school. Came to understand that a boy need a girl and sex. Four years went by trying to impress girls in every possible sense. Luckily got through to the college. now the tension is high. i have to get a good job after graduating and for that higher marks adds more odds. realiesd few secrets of life. Thought the new found knowledge would lead me the way but NO..it’s just for the sake of realizing that i have realized. Now i understand that we learn just for the sake of learning at the Moment of Learning. it have no relevance in the Future of one’s life. in future one has to  learn new things again based on new circumstances. So we keep on learning and learing.. that is why we keep on forgetting and forgetting. Now that i have a decent job in a private company, it is tough life in here. Private life is different from Government or Corporate life in one sense that people feel guilty while receiving salary if one hasn’t done any work in the month. it's like taking some ones else hard earned money freely...In here too the thing that i have learnt are just grey memories. New thing pop up continuously and i learn to cope up with it continuously. Learning and Learning.....and Learning.... if i go on doing this for the rest of my life what is the meaning of doing that? Are we just born to learn somebody else Bull shits???
Parallel to learning at this stage dreams of getting popular, rich, significant, respectable surfaces form deep down. getting what we get isn't enough. This fantasies hunts us down day and night...i am not sure if dreams really come true or rarely comes true but one thing is sure that dreams are also just meant for that moment only??? What a World,  What a Life and  What a Child....
Once we get something we feel like we have achieved it and it is over now. But the real challenge has yet to come. GIRL. She is one thing that troubles my rational judgments. She is the one thing that is not okay if i dont have and not okay even if i have. No She is not even neutral between positive and Negative. it is something different....and at this moment i am Fucked up with this confusion or dilemma or ...

 the story is still going on Just like a Dream...

Younten J
6/3/2012